sahibahku...

bismillahirahmanirahim...

alhamdullilah,alhamdullilah,alhamdullillah....tiada lafaz yg dapat ija ucapkan selain syukur atas segala nikmat dan kesempatan yg Allah beri pd diri yg kerdil ini...masih diberi peluang utk memohon keampunanNya dan menjalani hidup yg bersisa ini.. da lama x berkongsi cerita kt blog..hari ni ija nk bercerita tentang seorg sahibah ija.. Allah menguji beliau dgn kesihatan..sahibah ada kanser hati...pernah menjalani operation transplant..alhamdullilah,semuanya baik pd awalnya..tapi,takdir Allah da tertulis..sakitnya kembali..ini email dari Dr pakar sahibah ija..

"It's getting hard for all of us. She sick back, there's something disturb her liver functions but we don't know what is it yet. The hardest thing now is her. She's different. I don't know how to explain. She said she's okay, just tired, having fun outside, just go back US, eat like she's okay, smiling and playing but she's sick. She should be just lying on bed in this situation. Other patients didn't even have energy to wakeup. I don't know how she got her strength for that. Whatever she said, did nowadays is not okay. I really want you to talk. Tell me everything. I know it's getting hard for you but don't keep it silence. Please."

Ija terkedu dan tak mampu berkata apa2..sedih, bersalah dan hy mampu berdoa buat dia.. sahibah ija cb gagahkn diri dia dan buat macam org yg sihat..betul apa yg org kata..org sakit ni kadang2 sengaja buat kita marah dan geram dengan perangai depa..depa tersenyum dan ketawa mcm biasa tapi kesakitan yg depa tanggung,hanya Allah yg tahu... sahibah ku,moga Allah berikan mu pahala atas ketabahan mu dan meninggikan darjat mu atas kesabaranmu menghadapi ujianNya...tiada lain yg mampu ku lakukan hy sekadar doa dr kejauhan.. maafkan segala ketelanjuran kata2 andai nasihat dari ku terlalu 'keras' dan ija lakukan sebab ija sayangkn kamu sahibah....T_T

"ya Allah,sesungguhnya aku meyakini apa yg Kau takdirkan adalah yg terbaik buat kami..apa pun musibah atau bentuk ujian yg Kau berikan kepada kami,hamba2 Mu, kurniakanlah kesabaran dan ketabahan hati dalam kami mengharunginya.kuatkan lah iman kami dan letakkn kebergantungan hy pdMu wahai Maha Pengasih Maha Penyayang..."